Reaching out....FINALLY!

I am so proud of myself!  I have been really trying to hang out with people and not isolating myself in my apartment.  I am trying to be a better person, inside and out.  I feel like I am finally becoming the girl I was when the clock struck 12:00am on Jan. 1st 2011.  Wahoo!  I feel good lately.  Thank gosh =)  I have been reading scriptures and trying to be a righteous child of God.  Repentance is far from easy, I can tell you that much, but I am trying.....Every second, every minute, every hour, every day, you get the point.  I am so grateful I finally have a bishop who is very supportive of me and my decision to get back on the right path.  I use to hate the feeling of talking to my previous bishop because I felt so judged and I would leave feeling suicidal.  Not a good feeling =(  I avoided church and/or my (previous) bishop and hated knowing that if I died today, I would go straight to hell.  It killed me, so instead I started drinking so that I wouldn't feel that guilt anymore and let Satan take over.  It worked but not for too long.  Thankfully it was short lived and now I am back on the right track.  Well, life is getting better, and I am putting myself out there.  Its a good feeling <3