Its always nice to have a friend that you can be 100% honest with. Some (a lot) of my friends I have to watch what I say in fear of being judged, made fun of, etc. Tonight I was with a few friends (after un-packing all day! Well, an hour was spent getting my new license) and someone ask me a question about my recent relationship. When I was being completely honest, all I kept getting was these horrible judging facial expressions from her. Talk about uncomfortable. It made me sad to know someone was judging someone they didnt even know even when I don't judge him.
I was bothered by this the rest of the night, in fact, I still am.
Afterwards, I took a friend home and we talked in my car for awhile about all different things. Luckily, I knew I wasn't being judged. We can relate because we have a lot in common.
Recently, I was talking to another friend and she told me she didnt like who I was when I dated my 1st boyfriend. I guess its hard for people to understand, but I know myself better than anyone. I don't think I can blame anything on him. In my defense, he got the worst Karlee has ever been. He dated me two months after I got raped. Any girl would be F'd up after that. It wasnt until about a year to the date of my "R" that I started to become the person I was before it happened.
Thank goodness my recent ex met me after I was like my old self again. He got the much better Karlee out of it.
So.... people have this horrible stigma about mental illnesses. What do I think? GET OVER IT! No one choose to be bi polar, no one choose to be manic... that's life. No one is perfect..... only the Lord is. Remember this: "Don't judge me because I sin differently than you do."
Thank you for letting me vent tonight..... you know who you are =)
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