Incompatable

I feel extremely overwhelmed!  I know I should be less stressed now that I am not working, but ironically, I am now more stressed.  I guess I have put a lot more pressure on myself to exceed in school that I feel like I cant pass.  I feel like I am at a University learning a foreign language.  My classes are so much harder than I ever expected.  

I recently repented on Sunday.  It wasn't easy but it's way easier than trying not to do the things that I repented of.  I am fighting a hard battle.  "I never said it would be easy, I only said it would be worth it."  That couldn't be more true. 

I am just fighting a harder battle living everyday.  I guess everyday is a good thing when you're above ground.  I am glad that I dont have to say everything I am thinking.  I know what would happen and I dont have time for that.

My friend and I were talking and she said I need something to look forward to.  Luckily, I was just ask to be a photographer at girls camp.  I never thought I would be able to go back unless I was in YW, but yay!  I have that to look forward to.

Well, if I get through today, hopefully i'll get through tomorrow, and so forth.  Everyday is a fighting battle.  Sadly.